No more

I can't let myself eat anymore today.

I just can't.

Sorry for the 4 day hiatus - SKINNY GIRL DIET

I'm a fucking failure, I've binged all four days. Didn't throw any of it up, had one exercise class the whole time. Fuck me.

I've decided to go on the skinny girl diet.

I'm on day one (400 cal limit) and havn't eaten anything thus far (it's 3:15 pm now).
I plan to have either: ONE PULLED PORK SANDWICH (and nothing else the rest of the day). I don't know how many calories this is, but I have a feeling that my dad will bring it home. I think that this sandwich would be over 400 cal, so I plan to burn 200 cal in exercise today to make sure I follow the rules to the best of my ability.

If he doesn't:
-200 cal of this Japanese health pasta stuff.
-80 cal of yogurt
-90 cal of spinach salad w/ light dressing
-Tea with 25 cal of no fat creamer in it
-A piece of gum (5 cal ish)
=400

If you don't know the rules- you have a cal limit every day. 30 minutes of exercise 5 days a week. Any excess calories has to be burned off.

Wish me luck.
I'm pissed at myself.
Bye.
-Annie.

Hullo there

Mmmmmmmmk, so.

-No breakfast/workout: slept in.
-Ate a 100 cal pack at lunch + turkey/spinach sandwich.
-80 cal yogurt when I got home.

SO FAR: about 430. Not ideal, since I havn't eaten dinner.

Now. I am going to go 375 more calories over today, with my dinner. Reason being? If I don't, I can just see myself binging, and I'd rather have 300 rather than 3,000. Dig?

I'm still 192. Hoping this 805 calories won't make me gain...but sort of boost my metabolism. Doubt it, but that's what I'm hoping for.

I just need these calories to avoid a later binge, which will bring in tons more calories.

Blah. I'm so blahish right now. I want my dad to get out of the damn kitchen so I can make my dinner. OH yeah, I'm having 225 cal of tomato soup, 60 cal of egg whites, and a 90 cal salad.

Fuck him, he's washing my pan that I made my eggs yesterday with, now I have to re-dirty it and he's going to bitch and moan. Fuck him. I'm sorry, me and him just had a fight, and I'm pissed.

Le sigh.

Well, good news: 3 pounds until I hit my goal weight numero uno.
Then I get to reward myself with a little trip to get a manicure. I havn't had one in like a year, and I can't paint my nails for shit.

I have a whole list of rewards....so COMMENT IF YOU WANT TO SEE THEM.

Also, comment if you have any questions.....comment....complaints...concerns....ideas....anything!

I'd love to hear from y'all!

Merci.
-Annie

Hi darlings, today is great. WEIGH IN!!!!!!

AH! SO finally, I'll tell you how much I've lost.
The first week and a half of May, I was binging a LOT and dieting like a "normal" person would, and I would fluctuate between a two and four pound loss. So basically I'd bounce from 196-201 ish.

Then since I started this blog, I've really cut back. But I've had a lot of binges. Anyways, since my beginning journey (MAY 1), I've lost 11 pounds. I'm perfectly happy with that. So this puts me at 192.

My goal is to get to 189 by the end of May, which I have no doubt that I will do.

I've had a total of 230 calories today. (Two egg whites-60, yogurt-80, spinach salad w/ lite italian dressing-90). It's awesome, and I'm not even that hungry right now.

I REALLY tried to work out today, but my sickness causes me to have a lot of mucus in my lungs and what not, and I'd breath and literally like choke on just yuck. And it was getting to the point where there was more mucus/liquid than air, and I was sort of worried about...dying and whatever. It's just me being paranoid. I know, excuses, excuses, excuses. I'LL TRY HARDER TOMORROW!

Stayed home from schoool =D

Hii girlies,

I'm in a super good mood. I've eaten so little in the past two days that I could have been on the 5 bite diet. It's only because I'm sick though.

Sooo! What's my plan for today? [I just woke up haha]

After I finish my lil post here, I'm going to do work out number uno, which should take about 20 minutes. Then I'm going to take a shower. Next, I'm going to fix up 60 calories worth of egg whites. Then, I'm going to screw around for at least an hour, then I'll eat a yogurt. Then I'll chill out until dinner. I'll eat dinner [a spinach salad, I believe, I forget what is on my "plan"]. Then I'll wait an hour and work out, so I am not burning up fuel, I'm burning up fat! Then I'll be done.

I'm not following exact times and everything, and I'm skipping like some stuff. Just because that diet is designed for when I'm at school. I'm not at school. So yup!


Merci,
Annie

Today was a success....I suppose

So, I got punished for my binge yesterday. I got a horrible sore throat, so I didn't eat much today. Though, I didn't work out.

I didn't follow my diet plan, just because I was sick, and didn't have any of the things. But I didn't binge and I ate very little, so I'm hapy. My parents did go to the store and bought my lovely food that I shall live off of for the next week. Just a quick post.

Night all,
Annie

Sigh. An intervention must be made.

As the title says, there needs to be an intervention. My ability to do this diet is just not there right now. Why? Because I am literally overweight. It's not like I'm 115 pounds and want to get thinner. I am one obese fat ass. A fat ass that tends to stuff her face. So, only living off of such a thing, makes me binge. Which, I guess is to be expected when you from eating super enourmous amounts to little amounts.

So, my solution? I'm going to give myself a two week plan. I've made it myself.

Feel free to join in (or modify it, if you feel like it's too much food). I just really need to cushion myself from such a dramatic change, because it will only lead to binging.

FIRST DIET:

FOR WEEKDAYS:
Wake up-5:45 am [Do work out number 1, from earlier post]
Breakfast- 6:45 am [2 egg whites, and some fruit -fruit will vary- total: 100-120 calories]
Lunch- 11:45 am [Turkey sandwich- total: 200 calories]
Snack- 3:15 pm [slice of whole wheat toast with 1 tbsp of peanut butter, and an apple- total: 225 calories] *note, this snack is only there to avoid a later binge]
Dinner- 5:00 pm [Spinch salad- I am unsure of the amout of calories, but I'll figure that out before I make it, and tell y'all.]
Cardio- 6:00 pm [Thirty to sixty minutes of riding on the exercise bike.]
*No more eating after dinner
*Goal of 64+ oz of water

DAY TOTAL: 550-700 ish

FOR WEEKENDS:
Wake up- whenever [Go for a walk around my neighborhood]
Brunch- whenever I get back from walk [slice of whole wheat toast with 1 tbsp of peanut butter -165 calories]
Work out- 5:00 [Work out number two, from earlier list]
Dinner- 6:00 [Turkey sandwhich- cayanne pepper, lettuce -total- about 215ish]
*No more eating after dinner
*Goal of 64+ oz of water

DAY TOTAL: 380 ish


SECOND DIET:

For weekdays:
Wake up- 5:45 am [Run for 15 minutes to kick start day]
Breakfast- 6:45 am [egg white spinach omelet -total- 60/80ish calories]
Lunch- 11:45 am [apple, 50-60 calories]
Snack- 3:15 pm [low fat, low cal yogurt 50 ish?]
Dinner- 5:00 pm [tomato soup- 225 calories]
Work out- 6:00 pm [Work out #1, and #2 from lists]
*No food after dinner
*Goal of 64+ oz of water

DAY'S TOTAL: 410 ish

For weekends:
Wake up- whenever [Biggest Loser work out + a walk around the neighborhood]
Brunch- vary time [low fat, low cal yogurt 50 ish?]
Work out- 5:00 pm [Short yoga routine]
Dinner- 6:00 pm [Spinach salad, don't know the calories]
*No more food after dinner
*Goal 64+ oz of water


If you have any critiques you think I need to make, or any suggestions, PLEASE comment on it.

Thanks, and sorry for having to put the five bite diet on hold, until I can control myself. TWO WEEKS, I PROMISE THEN I'LL REALLY DO THE 5 BITE DIET. So this will go from Sunday, May 16, 2010 until May 29, 2010. Then May 30th, the 5 bite diet will begin again.

See yaaaaa,
Annie